The site

The other day I took a look at the other pages on this website and realized how incredibly out-of-date they are…  The page entitled The Beginning speaks only about the EAW drawings and what I say is still true, but so limited.  It’s also not accurate to call it the beginning, as I currently see the history of the project.  The Pages page just shows the full image of the first couple of pages of drawings and that’s fine, but there have been so many more.  And I haven’t been using the blog to follow the The Whole Story of the drawings for almost two years…

Yep, quite out of date.  If someone follows a link to the site, well, it doesn’t represent me, or my work, and I think it would be confusing.  So it’s time for a re-vision of the site.  I’m working on that.  I started by calling it The Middle, which in a way it is… I am in the middle of something.  I have also considered Along the Way or In Process as page titles.  One of them will stick, or maybe I’ll be adding pages.  But the process now is to re-view and understand what I have been doing.  Which will clarify what I am doing; what I am in the middle of.  (Dangling participle… poor thing, hanging out there alone, as if off a cliff.)

I honestly don’t read a lot of blogs myself.  And I am aware that only a few people read mine with any regularity.  That is fine with me.  I have never been much of a self-promoter.  But perhaps if I read more blogs, I would know why people blog.  Okay, that’s sort of ridiculous, because of course people have millions of different reasons for blogging.  Why am I blogging?  Wish I knew.  Honestly, sometimes it seems like I just woke up here in the blog-o-sphere.  Like the dreams where you are in public doing something embarrassing.

Now, wait a minute.  Reframe!  If I believe any of Brené Brown’s work, and I do, then what I am doing is making myself vulnerable, which is NOT the same as embarrassing myself.  I am ‘owning my story’ and spitting out the shame I have carried about being who I am, having the thoughts and feelings that I have.   So there!

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2 thoughts on “The site

  1. Thanks for writing, Em. It does make a difference when someone responds.
    AND it’s also true, as you say, that even without a feedback loop, sometimes just the process of owning and speaking/sharing my story yields mysterious, wondrous changes. xo

  2. I have been thinking about this very issue myself. My mother often says how horrifying she thinks blogging is, how she would die before putting public information out there. But, perhaps obviously, I disagree. I think bloggers blog to share information and to connect. To process some of that with which they struggle, wonder and worry about, fear. It’s risky to be sure but I have found that those people who write and let me know that my willingness to speak about certain things comforts them, makes them feel less alone, etc…well, that loop of connection makes me feel comfort too. By owning what we feel, by offering it up to others, we can free ourselves of much.

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